In loving memory of Satwant Rai (11-23-1987 - 12-6-2010)
My mother came into my room this morning trying to break the news of your passing. It was approx 5 am when she woke me up. Stumbling upon her words, she tried to ask me what my plans were for the day. She just had no idea how she could tell me what had happened to you. Eventually these words slipped out of her mouth "Tanu, Sathy was murdered last night, hes gone." I just didnt understand. I spoke to you yesterday, how can you be gone? How?
Its not fair. You just turned 23, and you were on your way to a successful career. All you have ever done in your life is help those around you, always. Never has it been about you. It was always what can Sathy do for others. Selflessness defines you and I think that is where I picked it up from. You are the most honest and giving man I know. The multitude of respect I have for you is unmatched by another. No man will ever live up to your stature. You never engaged in any wrongdoings and you are the only guy I know that doesn't believe in drinking alcohol because you think its bad for your soul. Surrounded by alcoholics, druggies and constant peer pressure, you never succumbed to either.
So why did God snatch you away from us when all you ever did was make the world a better place? I want to know why? Last night you didn't think twice when your friend called you asking for help. You ran to his defense and lost your life. That friend of yours didn't even have the guts to face his problems and wanted you to fix things. Why did you have to go and lay down your life for him? Why is he not even in the least bit apologetic for what happened? It's his fault you died. I will never forgive him. Why did these cowards put so many bullets through my beloved cousin? Why? Who told them they have the right to take lives? These monsters have taken the most amazing man from this world.
I am not sure how I will ever get past this. I have been going crazy all day. We grew up together, lived together, dreamt together and now you're just gone. You were not just my cousin, you were my older brother and one of my best friends. I could always confide in you about anything. Our personalities have always been very similar and you understand me better than anyone could. I have you to thank for the good attributes in me. Selflessness has hurt us both but I never thought it would take you away from me, never. I miss you so much and I just want this pain to go away. I feel like someone has stabbed me in the heart and left me with this unbearable piercing pain. I cant think beyond this right now. I am waiting for you to call me and tell me its a lie, you're still here.
Life without you is going to be so hard for me. A part of me died with you and this is straight torture. I wont be able to rest until I know these murderers are caught and punished. They are all cowards and really deserve to die...
The happiness you spread in our lives will never be forgotten. Everyone is hurting.
Rab Rakha
